downer day

ever have one of those downer days? looking through some old pictures i pondered why i dont talk to some of my 'friends' anymore and why god had to take a great guy so early. yeh i miss bradley, there will never be another. what he could have been! he will always be missed, but at least his mother now joins him in the heavenly field. poor jim though, now all alone, wife and only son both gone. how does that happen to such a great family? thinking of what great people pat and brad were, tears seem to come. i also miss hanging out with some of my high school buddies...yes derrick that includes you! i'm also trying to figure out why i dont like hanging out with lukes college buddies as much anymore, one i think because of the new girls they hang on, and the fact that they will always remind me of whos not here. its never a good thing to look at some good ole pictures when your day isnt going the best. probably a good thing luke is in the field for the next 5 days, it may be an emotional week...oh man girls and their emotions..seriously. :)
i went to a dance for class last night. going i thought it wasnt going to be fun and i wouldnt know anyone, but turns out a lot of classmates were there, and i had a real good time. i learned some new dances and danced with some people who...well i've always been shy around. i love the nights where you are with just friends and there is no one to be akward around. both friday and saturday night were just...awesome. friday night we hung out at the boys house...jon and taylors that is and just danced goofed around and all just hung out. and abby and i happened to kiss...and we werent even drinking...hmm. oh well. just a weekend that makes you smile..other than work ugh, some real bitchy people there.
you know, i just figured out that even though i miss hanging out wih lukes college buddies...it will never be the same. new girls, new attitudes. but good for them that they are getting attention from girls. and good for drew..he has a good girlfriend. but im suppose to be working on homework. so i should really do that instead.