in need of break

so even though ive had the easiest semester to date, i'm still so ready for a break. this semester has been tough, a lot of loads for the heart and emotions to handle. plus a new job with lots of hours, i feel just pulled in every direction. i miss a relaxing day, i'm glad i have sunday and monday off of next week, but still having a 35 hour work week. ooo! but its good money, lord knows i need it. this week is going by fast and slow at the same time. i hurt my knee again, but at least not as bad. I've started to run 2 miles every time i work out, and it hurts a lot to run. but screw it, i need to get into shape and running will get me there. sucks trying to up and especially down stairs with the pain, but i'll live, hopefully it will just go away with practice. hurt to wear heels at work today, found myself limping once in a while. i didnt dance today because i was afraid of twisting it again..oh yeh i did that getting into my house and slipped on the ice. felt like it slightly dislocated...hurt bad, but never swelled or the pain really didnt stay, but i did ice it and elevate it for a while. we have so much snow here, nice because we do need snow living in minnesota. i saw my first snowmobiler the other day and andy and i are going skiing this weekend, i'm super excited for that...xc skiing that is, i dont much like down hill, i guess i'm a chicken and like staying flat. today was a senior day at work, oh my god do those seniors make a mess. more than anyone else! i spent the whole day recovering the shelves while still trying to put away stuff from the dressing room and using the till.
i'm finding myself more depressed lately, just not happy with too many friendships and my body. oh i know i know...you dont care or you just rolled your eyes, but hey this is my blog. as i've written before i'm trying to get lean, and i've done nothing but either maintained or gained...how does that work? i have to get my body fat tested tomorrow..oh ish. but oh well i may have the lowest in the class. except for this girl who has chicken arms...hehe. at least i'm proud to have muscle and curves. i love my curves for sure.
so i had to lose a friend this week. a little by choice, but mostly other. i'm sad, but will deal, but the fact is that s/he doesnt know yet. i'm not going into details, too many names. but i will miss having chats with this person and getting some advice. its always nice to be able to talk to someone, and i'm losing that. as you can tell i'm sad and really didnt want to make the decision. and i didnt know so many of my other friends disapproved...not like i cared. and not like they care anymore either. i havent seen anyone stop by my house any time soon, except for taylor. he visits mostly abby, but me now and then. but the clock is ticking and 8am will come soon! goodnight all!