the holiday...ugh

i've come to discover I really dont like thanksgiving a whole lot. not only do you sit around the whole weekend with your same family, in my case its just my close family, waiting to eat this ridiculously over-calorie feast, then nap and its over. I think that part that drives me the most nuts is the whole family thing. well, ok, just my sister. ugh does she drive me out of that house fast. i left pretty early friday morning to come back to my quiet house in bemidji, oh and plus i had to work all weekend. i'm working a total of about 24 hours this weekend, so much for a holiday. no, it has to be the biggest shopping thing of the year. crabby people who wont let you go home because they have to get every sale item they can...ufda! as you can tell i'm in a not so good mood tonight. i'm glad i'm alone, and really dreading work tomorrow. but i cant call in 'sick' because for the first time i open. at least i have monday and friday off this week. i'm glad about friday and saturday night because the hockey team is finally back in bemidji after a month of away games. burr and i'm so damn cold right now, and a little hungary, maybe i should eat, but i really dont want to make anything. i should just complain about everything, man i sound just bitchy tonight. im tired. i want to see jarhead the movie, but everyone i know has already seen it. bummer. i was told first i shouldnt watch it, but now i'm told i should. YEAH i only have like 25 days until my sweatheart is home for 10 days. we have so much planned, but yet nothing. its great. im really dreading to send off again though. i hate saying good bye so many times. but the hellos are so nice. oh man what am i going to do tonight. no one is in town and i dont feel like going to frenchy's house to drink with all guys. i went bowling last night with 3 guys, pretty fun, but i was so tired...so they went off to drink at a house afterward and i came home to crash. i could go workout right now, but that takes effort, much of which i dont have right now. and even typing this is tough because my hands dont work when i'm cold...have you ever tried to write a check when your hands are frozen? they just dont work and your writing looks like a 5 year olds. i'm really wishin i had a guy to cuddle up to right now..like you want to hear that, but its my damn blog, so i can say whatever. and to derrick....you bum you didnt call me up when you were home! thats alright, i probably wouldnt have been there. anyway off for the night.