blockbuster summer

so i went to watch mission impossible 3 tonight with a couple friends. i was super excited about it but some of my friends told me it was a bust....heck no. i was totally entertained through the whole thing. i'm not a critic, if i was i suppose i would have hated it, but i throughouly...like it. it kept me on the edge the whole time and the almost ending, quite good. of course i wont say too much, that would ruin it. but i'm ready for a blockbuster summer for sure. things like pirates of the carribbean 2, superman, x-men 3, and other quality stuff. even 6-6-06..oh yes the day of the devil is coming upon us..ha. we'll see. but the movie looks decent.

tough break

what a sad day for some. an army guy i know, his brother was killed in a car accident. its good to know that he is able to come home, and there was only about 6 hours between the time his wife called the red cross and his phone call home saying he was on his way. that guy has had some really tough times. his wife and infant were in a car accident and he had to come home earlier in his deployment. cant the guy get a break? i've been deep in thought lately of the idea of luke and i not together..no it didnt happen, nor do i think it will. but i'm so scared of who is going to be getting off that plane and who i am going to be in a relationship with. is it going to be my luke? i dont know why im so afraid right now, maybe because of his recent blog and how much it scared me. i'm going to stop now, pretty sad and if i keep typing. who knows.

Pre-summer day

oh beautiful day. i got a little burnt and super tired from a whole day of sitting outside watching friends play in a volleyball tourney at a local bar. i was super jeleous of not being able to play :( For some reason i'm in a weird mood today. i've been talking to a lot more people lately, i think because i'm working that rec, but for some reason, i feel so ...alone. i feel like i'm missing out. but i cant figure out what i'm missing out on. i dont think i really know who i am yet. still trying to find out who i want to be and what i want to become. most people figure that out in highschool, but no i'm still finding myself. i really want to travel abroad, and i need to make that happen, now that i saw greece in a movie I HAVE TO GO THERE! i dont know if its alone that i feel, but just like i dont fit in. i seem so different than most people and i have a heard time meeting new people and starting conversations. living alone this summer i think will help out, but at the same time, make me even more lonely. but i'm really looking forward to the summer and getting rid of the school stress. it also means more time will pass for luke to come home. i know i've said this many many times, but he is super amazing and i couldnt be more lucky and happier with anyone else. i cant wait to walk down the isle towards him with our family and close friends surrounding us. what a perfect day. i forget what i was going to write on here, i get distracted so easy!
goodnight all