tough break

what a sad day for some. an army guy i know, his brother was killed in a car accident. its good to know that he is able to come home, and there was only about 6 hours between the time his wife called the red cross and his phone call home saying he was on his way. that guy has had some really tough times. his wife and infant were in a car accident and he had to come home earlier in his deployment. cant the guy get a break? i've been deep in thought lately of the idea of luke and i not together..no it didnt happen, nor do i think it will. but i'm so scared of who is going to be getting off that plane and who i am going to be in a relationship with. is it going to be my luke? i dont know why im so afraid right now, maybe because of his recent blog and how much it scared me. i'm going to stop now, pretty sad and if i keep typing. who knows.