Sept 6 2005

So today was kind of hard, and I have no idea why. I was doing good, but almost broke down in class today, so strange. There were times I almost had tears, very strange, and its only day 2. I think i was so upset because i was looking at the army website, and the fact that i didnt get a phone call today. i guess i cant expect one everyday, but getting 2 yesterday was so nice. I thought i would actually get calls everyday, stupid me, now i know. i really need to find a job to keep myself busy, and a new hobby, i'm thinking like crochet...or however you spell that, its kind of cheap and doesnt involve me being expensive equipment. quilting would be cool, but i cant afford a machine. i really want a job though, something that will keep me busy and my mind off the army. maybe a clothes store, but i would probably buy everything. but better than shoes, because i wouldnt make money, but lose it. tonight was better, i kept busy after class writing my lab write up for running biomechanics. i need to definately keep busy, no doubt. it sucks getting out of class at 12 and having nothing to do. the job i have been emailing to a lady about never seems to go through, i thought they were really interested in me but i havent heard too much. I really want the rec center, how perfect would that be with my major. but they are always full and cant accept any more employees. but they are looking for refs and special event staff, that would get me in the door for a job this summer. this summer is another story, hope i keep busy, but happy to think that this is my last summer alone hopefully, you never know with the army. lukes only been in like almost 2 years and he is already deployed, he has like 4-5 years left. ugh. oh well i'm so proud, cant lie. well i'm off to bed, only one class tomorrow, work out then have fun. all of my classes were cancelled this week, so nice...well not all but some that mattered, so i've actually only been to like 4 classes this week. only 76 days until christmas break and i can see my boy! goodnight